FOUNDER, Jan-Michelle Sawyer, Ph.D.

Jan-Michelle Sawyer is an educator, sculptor and a self- described Life-Long-Learner. Over a period of 20 years while living in Hawaii, Jan-Michelle experienced a family of healers and teachers who inspired her to explore the human pathways of what it means to be a divine being, all of which led to her own spiritual growth and personal transformation. Her desire to explore the multiple depths of what it means to be humanly conscious led to the development of this website where authors can share their eBooks related to exploring ones’ human potential with other Life-Long-Learners.

 

God, Where Are You?

By Jan-Michelle Sawyer

March 24, 2015

When I was six years old, I knew exactly where God was. She resided in my bedroom, on the window ledge in a cardboard cut-out of the manger. The whole gang was there – Baby Jesus, Mary and Joseph, and a few barn animals who grazed on cardboard hay.

Wearing a tattered and multi-colored terry cloth bathrobe, a gold-colored tiara and clutching a baseball bat as my staff, I’d while away the hours, kneeling and bowing, pretending I was a powerful priestess of the church.

For me, ‘playing church’ was the equivalent of playing with imaginary friends. Baby Jesus was my best friend. Making the sign of the cross and standing in front of my cardboard manger was pure fun. It made me feel special.

As a child, I felt the presence of God, but family life eventually pulled me away from this feeling. God and I didn’t always bathe in the glow of heavenly bliss. I was a flawed human-being. My mind and spirit were damaged from the get-go. Somehow, I felt that something divine resided deep within my heart and soul, and just knowing that kept me searching for God. Click Here to read the full article.